A Delivering Journey

I had an interesting thought as a sweet kitten came to snuggle in my lap this afternoon... Meet Penny - Penny is a super sweet cat, but she's definitely the worrier of the pack. She hates being picked up unless you do it a certain way, which usually includes holding her feet so she isn't dangling,  but even still you can feel her little body tense up. She panics when you leave her in a room, and she generally loves to be near you and less on you like her two siblings. Though she loves to play fetch (weird, right?) she won't go after her toy mouse if one of the other cats or the dog is near where it lands. She just looks back at you with a terrified expression. Penny definitely wears her worry on her sleeve...er, fur? So today as she came to cuddle on my lap, which I LOVED, I noticed something as I went to rub her head - she watched my hand come near her with fear. As soon as I touched her head her expression softened, but it made me a little sad to think she was afraid

Monday I am going to be trying something crazy - acupuncture. Ok, so maybe it isn't that crazy. It was recommended to me a few years ago by friends who had used it for med school stress and such, but I never really felt like following up. I made an appointment with a chiropractor with great reviews in the area, but she was still 35min away (where I live, that's pretty far. Everything is pretty close) and I ended up canceling because I was already spread pretty thin. Now I am kind of at a point where I feel like I've tried everything else and I'm a little sick of dealing with doctors. Not that I'm going to stop dealing with them, but I feel like it's time I explore a little. If nothing else, I'm a little curious to experience it. There are no negative risks to acupuncture other than being stuck with a bunch of tiny needles. However, I hear you can barely feel them (similar to a mosquito bite) and if I can handle Botox injections for migraines, I can total

I've been trying to throw myself into projects around the home since I'm no longer employed. It's still frustrating and sad at times, but I'm trying to be joyful, positive, and grateful. Not that this situation is ideal, but there are many people who would love to be able to stay home. So after a brief moping around period, I decided to get busy. I've been working around the house quite a bit, but HALLELUJAH, spring is here. I absolutely love being in my garden, so spring is kind of my jam. Here's what I've been up to: I've been reading a lot lately, which is something I love to do, but haven't felt like I've had the time. I think I've gone through 3 or 4 books in the last 2 months and I'm working on 2 more. It has been so nice, but sometimes I get so wrapped up in books I sit and read all day. Oops :) I have decided to make myself a project these days. I'm committed to improving my physical, mental, and spiritual health. I&#

I have decided to let go of something I have been holding onto for a little over 3 years: Guilt. What guilt? Thank you note guilt. I am that  person. I am so ridiculously sorry to everyone who gifted Randy and I with wonderful presents at our wedding and wedding showers. They were very much appreciated, and I am well aware how rude it is to not send a thank you. I sincerely apologize. We were deeply touched by the love we received. As you probably know, we have had a crazy and exhausting past few years. Not that I'm making excuses, but it simply was not a priority in this road of trying to figure out my health issues. Between crazy medications and feeling miserable for most of the last few years, it just wasn't something I was in a place to do, and Randy just doesn't have the time between taking care of me and working. After a while, guilt and shame kept them from being done. I have been telling myself that I will just have to do them, and that late (super late in m

I have a new favorite thing. It is called Bountiful Baskets, and if you like fruits and vegetables it should be your new favorite thing as well! So you pay $15-$20 (I think it's different depending on where you live) and it's $25 if you want an organic basket. Honestly, I don't think I will ever pay for the organic basket because everything in the regular one usually tastes like it's organic. Also, I choose to get ours every week, verses every other week, so $25 a pop is a little steep for us. Anyway...you pay for your basket, and any bonus pack you want (see below for details) on Monday or Tuesday of the week you would like your basket. Monday is the earliest you can order and Tuesday around 10pm is the latest. Then, depending on where your nearest location is your pickup day should be either Friday or Saturday morning or afternoon. For example, my location is 11:45 am on Saturdays. You MUST pick up your order within 20 minutes of the time listed or the food is donat

The sigh is for myself, haha. I think I've decided the only way I can actually finish a blog post is to just sit down and force myself to finish it in one sitting. If I get distracted or get up, it's not going to happen. Sigh. Right now I'm watching Friends on Netflix, so let's see if I can make it through without distraction ;) HAH! I know I have been totally absent from this blog for a few months, but I haven't quite had the words these days. I finally wrote a post at the beginning of December , but I never posted it for anyone to see. At first it was because I never got around to it, but then I just couldn't handle the sad irony. I wrote about how it really felt like things were turning around for us and we were going into a new season. While I still believe that's true, some crazy things have been happening. The day after I wrote that post (seriously. the next day...sigh) I had a crazy episode slightly similar to what used to happen to me. I had n