A Delivering Journey

So crazy things have been going on lately. I'm super sleepy, and I really need to go to bed because my seizures get worse when I get less sleep, but I'll deal with that later, I guess. I have a lot on my mind. Where to begin? So we had our "vacation." Although it was kind of like the most intense weekend EVER. Well, sort of. It was really nice, but I definitely didn't get to relax like I wanted to. I'm sure Randy felt the same. We had a GORGEOUS cabin, though...and the trees were beautiful as well!!! It was amazing! AND I had s'mores! For some reason I have been craving them like NONE OTHER lately. It was fairly intense. So yummy! I felt bad for Randy, though. He had to drive the whole way :( I love to drive, too. Sad day for Erin.  Anyway, I guess I'll stop talking and share pictures. I have a few of them. Our gorgeous cabin! Good job, Randy! panorama from my phone! Here's us at the lake from above? It was pretty!

I wanted to dedicate this post specifically to how the Lord has been speaking to me lately. It has been very intentional, and very powerful. It has changed something major (for me, anyway) and has been super emotional for me. I've always struggled with the feeling that I can't hear the Lord. I don't know why, but I've always had this envy of others who talk about hearing Him so clearly. My heart yearns to hear His voice. I always think, "Am I not listening? Am I doing something wrong?" As I think these thoughts, my mind rushes to moments where He has spoken to me, just in different ways. Maybe He speaks to me in a different way. There are 2 times in my life where God has spoken in the most amazing way I can possibly imagine, where it is absolutely, without a doubt, Him. I mean, I know He has spoken other times, too, but there are 2 times that blow me away beyond belief. Both of them have been life-changing decisions where I didn't know w

I saw Dr. P today and it was so/so. The whole appointment probably lasted a grand total of 20-30 minutes... I've been in a lot of pain lately, so I told him about that. I'm not sure if it means my medicine isn't working, or what's going on, but I thought it was important. Also, I let Dr. P know that Randy let me know that I have been talking in my sleep lately. That's not normally a big deal, but he said I have been saying letters like "a, e, b, z, r, f, d, etc." The REALLY strange part is the fact that I have repeated the same letters on other nights in my sleep. A few similar events have happened, too, but they're hard to explain...weird. I have also had dreams every night for the past 4 nights where I have had grand mal-ish seizures. Weird. When I told Dr. P about this, he started to get really serious and his entire demeanor changed. -Side note: I had told him about making my appointment with my new neurologist (december 5!) and he had told me