Thank You

I have decided to let go of something I have been holding onto for a little over 3 years: Guilt.

What guilt? Thank you note guilt. I am that person.

I am so ridiculously sorry to everyone who gifted Randy and I with wonderful presents at our wedding and wedding showers. They were very much appreciated, and I am well aware how rude it is to not send a thank you. I sincerely apologize. We were deeply touched by the love we received.

As you probably know, we have had a crazy and exhausting past few years. Not that I'm making excuses, but it simply was not a priority in this road of trying to figure out my health issues. Between crazy medications and feeling miserable for most of the last few years, it just wasn't something I was in a place to do, and Randy just doesn't have the time between taking care of me and working. After a while, guilt and shame kept them from being done.

I have been telling myself that I will just have to do them, and that late (super late in my case) is better than never. Well, today I decided to let it go. While I am still incredibly thankful, I cannot continually guilt myself over something I should have done long ago. Is it still my mistake? Yes. But I have decided to forgive myself and move on, with the intention of doing better in the future.

Please forgive me.

Sincerely,
Erin


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