A Delivering Journey

I saw Dr. S today and left horribly disappointed. In fact, I'm not sure if I'll be a patient of his much longer. I'm not one to condone doctor hopping, especially when it seems like you're only doing so because you just aren't hearing what you want to hear, but I've really thought hard about this decision and I feel like it's based on the right reasons. Let me start from the beginning... I found this funny picture of a Dr. Salmon :) although it looks kind of like a goldfish... From the start, I've liked Dr. S as a person, but he has sort of fixated on something insignificant instead of what I'm coming to see him for, and that's why I was coming to him in the first place - I had a different doctor who was doing that to me. Dr. S mainly wanted to focus on my migraines, which aren't really a big problem for me, but he was trying to make them this huge ordeal, and he wasn't even wanting to really talk about my epilepsy. When I prodded ...

I'm not sure how long this post will be, but I'll try to make it coherent. Monday afternoon, Randy and I were running some errands and the alarm went off on my phone to tell us it was time for my Topamax, but we had forgotten to bring it, so I basically dealt with the fact that I was going to have to miss a dose. I knew we probably wouldn't get home in time for me to take it because Dr. P says not to take it after about an hour and a half past the time I was supposed to take it to begin with. I figured I'd have a few problems the next day, but if I had known what was going to happen, I would have made us turn the car around and head for home. In fact, now Randy's policy is just that: Medicine time is no joking matter. If it's not with us, we're going to get it...no matter where we are. That's how bad the past 2 days have been. So fast-forward to Tuesday, and I had basically been fine all day except for random twitching in my face and arms all day. ...

I've had quite a bit on my mind lately. While it may not always seem like it, I've been trying to stay intentional with my blog posts so that I'm not just rambling on about nonsense. I try to have a clear purpose for each post and I like to have an idea of what I'm going to talk about. Lately, my medication (I think the T-max is mostly to blame) has made this part particularly difficult. Sorting through thoughts is an incredibly difficult process. Sometimes I just feel stupid . Not a good feeling. This post is going to be about children. It's not going to be a silly post like last time, and there aren't going to be any games. I'm going to be super serious. This is a post from the depths of my heart and  soul. I am often overly dramatic, but I am being very serious here. I am extremely passionate about the things I am about to write. I've had quite a bit of "baby brain" lately since it seems many people I know are having babies! Until this ...

The day has arrived! I went to my doctor this afternoon and got hooked up to my EEG. I'm exhausted from the process. BUT, as promised, here's a picture...I have to carry that bag around with me everywhere, and that strand of wires is connected to various places on my head. I also have to write down everything I do. If I sit down to watch TV, I have to write it down, and what time I do it. If I take a nap, I have to write that down, too, and so on. It's a little obnoxious, but hopefully it'll get me one step closer to figuring things out. I've already had one episode where it suddenly felt like my world was spinning, so here's hoping it's reading my results accurately so the doctor can give me more exact information about my condition! I'm not looking forward to taking all of these electrodes off Monday morning, though! They gave me an acetone (basically nail polish remover) solution to spray on my hair to dissolve the glue. Then, I have to make it to and...

This week has been different. I guess I should be grateful that every week is quite different, but sometimes I wish life would chill out a bit. I just realized it is only Tuesday! Wow, time can really mess with you! I'm always amazed at how one minute it feels like time is flying by and the next it feels like it can't go fast enough. Sunday night, Randy and I decided I needed to end my employment at the bookstore for reasons I won't fully disclose on this blog. In a nutshell, we felt like there were secrets being kept by management that shouldn't have been there, and we decided it wasn't worth the stress it caused for the pay it earned. Before this incident, I have never in my life quit a job within a week, but I guess there's a season for everything! Next: All of my classes are going well so far! I realized something, though... I am taking 3 of the hardest classes of my entire degree this semester...while taking a medication that impacts my mental state ...

I. Am. Exhausted.  I'm not sure if I've ever been so tired before, but I KNOW my feet have never hurt as badly as they have this week. I started my new job, and I basically get to make my own hours. So like a good overachiever, I decided to work about 40 hours my first week. I get maybe 10 minutes of sitting time a day. Maybe. It's SO rough on my poor feet. I used to work at Lifeway, but I think I worked 7ish hour shifts and some weeks there were 3 days between my shifts, so there was more down time. Now, the idea of standing literally makes me want to cry. I'm thinking I might be one of the people they hired for 2 weeks only, though. I don't know - no one has told me anything...which is kind of really frustrating. I may be ready to say good riddance after the 2 weeks! :) Health-wise, things have been pretty weird - as usual. I got the results back from the test that I never heard the name of from Dr. S and apparently it was abnormal, then my vestibular also cam...

I think the question I get asked more than any other since Randy and I got married is "when will you start having children?" It's a rare week when I don't hear that one at least twice. I'd probably hear it more often if I got out more. Wellllll....we have an announcement! JUST KIDDING!!!! I totally got you, didn't I :) We're planning on waiting for a few years. By "a few years," I mean at least 3-5, depending on my health and other circumstances. We want to enjoy our time together as a married couple because we won't get that precious time back. Once I graduate in May we're going to travel the world, and that won't really be possible with a baby tagging along. We have plenty of time. I love this picture of her. I feel like she looks so regal. For now, meet Pepper . Pepper is our dog-child, and she is all the toddler I need right now. Seriously, I'm not even sure she knows she is a dog. Pretty sure sh...

It took me a few minutes to decide what I wanted to call this post. It's an "update" post, but I figured I'll probably have quite a few of those, and it'll get old if they're all called "update," so I settled with that. I told Randy I was going to write a new blog post and he said, "about what?" and I told him it was just an update over my appointment with Dr. Salmon and whatnot, so he decided to start coming up with other names for him like Dr. Swordfish, or Dr. Mackerel. So funny, that one! I saw Dr. Salmon Friday! From this point on, I think I'm going to call him Dr. S...or maybe Dr. Fishy? Nahh, I'll call him Dr. S. Dr. Peikari is Dr. P, so Dr. Salmon will be Dr. S. Glad we have that settled. Alright, so I haven't completely decided how I feel about Dr. S yet. I mean, as a person I really, really like him, but as a doctor I haven't decided yet. He has basically decided to start at ground zero and that kind of freaks R...

So I'm on a little bit of a coconut kick. I saw something on pinterest the other day that said something to the effect of "if you have issues with your hormones, coconut oil can help!" and it talked mostly about hormone issues with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), which is another crazy condition I have. That one is pretty common among women, though. It's no big deal for me, but it can be for some women. I thank God for that one. The person said to just drop a dollop of the oil in your coffee in the morning and you get the benefit without too much of a taste change. Also, coconut oil has natural fats that your body needs and it actually can help your body lose weight . Yeah. Fats that make you lose weight. Cool, right? Also, I really like coconut, so this is like candy for me! Coconut oil has also been proven to help with memory (especially EVCO when taken on a daily basis) and while on Topamax I need all the memory boost I can get! It can get a little rough some...

Logan is my 10 year old nephew and I love that kid so, so much. I can't even describe it. Before I was married, I had 3 handsome nephews, Logan, Carter, & Eli,  and 1 gorgeous niece, Abby. (By marriage, I have gained 3 more beautiful nieces and 4 more handsome nephews!) This is one of the most recent pictures I could find of them all together. They're a great bunch of kids. I love them all to death. Logan is definitely very special to me, though. That's not to say that the others aren't special to me as well, but Logan lived with us until he was 3, so Logan is not only my nephew, Logan is my little brother. I will always feel that way. He is being baptized this Sunday and I am so, unbelievably proud of him. Logan, I love you and I hope you will always be my buddy that I carried with me everywhere and took with me to the park. I pray you'll seek the Lord in all you do and that you'll look to Him for your future. He has something huge planned for you, an...

Unless you were born in the back of a taxi, at home, or something like that, your life started in a doctor's hands. For most people, you then visit a doctor once a year or so after that - less if you're lucky. If you're my husband, you go to the doctor once every 3 years or so... Oh, to be one of those people! My medical problems really got started around 6th grade, but they didn't really kick into gear until I was 18 or so. I still remember getting to college and running around asking people what doctor to go to because I had never found one on my own before! By my 21st birthday, I had already been to my fair share of doctors, probably more than most 50 year old people have in their whole lives! Now, I'm kind of a pro at finding good ones! I have tricks up my sleeves!  First of all, you need to know that if there is something wrong with you, there is NOTHING wrong with getting help for it. I felt so ashamed of myself for being in the doctor so often...

Ok, so now that I'm off of that soap box, I feel much, much better. The air was thin up there! Something incredible happened today. Something beautiful happened today. Let me start from the beginning. So I stayed up WAY too late again studying for my Spanish final, and after the Olympics tonight I am SO going to try to get on a better sleeping schedule! :) Anyway, I went to Spanish, took my final, had lunch with Randy and got to sit and enjoy talking with my amazing husband for a while. It was so wonderful. True story: I hadn't told Randy about my blog yet. I know that sounds crazy, but I just wasn't ready for anyone to know about my blog until last night, other than those who happened to stumble upon it. Also, I'm really bad with my [spoken] words sometimes, so it was kind of better for me to tell him about it by not verbally telling him, but by him reading about it. It was sort of liberating. Call it what you will, but I will call it liberating. Anyway, we di...